Blessed.

It is probably very widely known that one of the worst things about going to university is leaving the friends you grew up with. For me that was very hard, especially leaving my two closest friends who I consider to be just like sisters to me.

(My two best friends are so much prettier than me)

There was one night, just under a week before I was leaving for university. I had just said goodbye to my two closest friends in the world, and I found myself just crying, and not being able to stop. I literally went and got tissues four times, and still continued to cry. I couldn't stop myself, but I knew university was something I had to do. So I went.

Of coarse meeting new friends and university has been great and I love my 5 flatmates to bits. But nothing beats coming home and meeting up with my girls. I feel completely blessed to have friends like these two. They know me inside out and it doesn't matter how long we're apart because when we're all together again it's like no times past at all. 

I really do feel blessed to have these two girls as my best friends, I couldn't ask for anybody better. They've been there for me through some horrible things, as well as normally being the reason for the brilliant things.

Thank you guys, I love you both.

Weight loss? Maybe..

Hellooo. 

So it's pretty safe to say if you are a girl, in our society, there's probably something you don't like about yourself. Aesthetically speaking. For me, its always been my weight, my thunder thighs and big hips specifically, being a pear shaped person. 

I have been on every single diet out there, and that's not even an exaggeration. I've done Atkins, Slimfast, the fasting diet, the juice diet, the 5:2 diet. Literally you name it I've probably done it.

However! Recently I've decided that enough is bloody well enough. I am done putting my body through the stress of yoyo dieting not to mention my mental health. I'm done being miserable with my body and feeling rubbish in whatever I wear, so I've come to the conclusion that if something is broken, it can be fixed. Therefore if i'm unhappy only I can fix it.

So, I'm sticking to the two golden rules of getting healthier, eat less crap, and drink more water. Easy right?

Also, positively, I went out for my first run in a long while tonight and it felt wonderful. I used to run all the time, until I got shin splints in both legs at the same time and had to stop. Now, two stone heavier than I was then, I am starting it again. Not that I did no exercise in that time, I do karate and am part of the rowing club at university. 

So, feeling more positive and motivated than I have in a while, I guess I'll just see how it goes.

37 things about myself

I found this a lot harder than I initially anticipated because I'm the type of person who hates to talk about myself, but here I am doing it anyway. Why the hell not.
I was aiming for 50 things about me but really couldn't think of enough.

1. I'm an Aquarius, as my birthday is the 12th February.
2. My favorite fruit is a nectarine.
3. I am 5 foot six inches.
4. I have two pets, a dog and a ferret.
5. I talk to my pets, a lot.
6. ... and to myself even more.
7. I always put others before myself, which I don't think is a bad thing.
8. If all of me is under the duvet, the monsters can't get me.
9. I love karate, and have done it since I was 11.
10. I also love rowing, and joined the Lincoln Rowing Club when I started university.
11. I shuffle cards when I’m stressed, I wouldn't call it a bad habit necessarily, it’s just when I don’t have any cards I’ll tap my fingers, fiddle with my hair, or something else equally annoying.
12. I have dyed my hair so many different colours but I always come back to my natural blonde.
13. I have 12 piercings, including all the ones in my ears.
14. I lovelovelove to read.
15. I have a serious obsession with drinking 2 liters of water a day.
16. I have needed to wear glasses since I was 10 years old.
17. I drink way too much tea.
18. My favorite colour is purple.
19. Foods I don't like include brussel sprouts, cauliflower, tomatoes, most sauces, including ketchup, salad cream, BBQ sauce, anything like that and vinegar.
20. I have rather erratic eating habits and have been on every diet under the sun.
21. Peanut butter is my favourite thing to have in a sandwich.
22. When I love something, like a series, I will literally be obsessed with it and get very sad when it ends.
23. Safe to say, I cried my way through the Deathly Hallows part 2.
24. I don't get ill often, but when I do its generally quite bad.
25. Even though I'm from Essex, I don't have the typical Essex accent, only the minority have it.
26. I'm quite an anxious person, and tend to worry about a lot.
27. I've never been happy with my weight, not that i'm overweight but ya know.
28. I still have stuffed toys on my bed and probably always will.
29. I love being at university, my first year has just finished and it was absolutely brilliant.
30. Golden nuggets are my favorite cereal, lovely stuff.
31. I have a very very big phobia of vomiting, not other people, just the feeling of being sick myself.
32. I'm also scared of spiders, the dark and wasps/buzzing things.
33. I much prefer winter to summer, I hate to be too hot.
34. I love the sims. This is not a good thing, I can play that game all day.
35. I can't drive.
36. I've only been on a plane twice in my life, so far.

Why are you starting a blog?!

Good question really.

I'll start by saying hi, to anyone who happens to stumble across this shambles of a blog.
My name is Shannon, I'm nineteen years old, blonde, an undergraduate student, and I live in either Lincoln, when I'm at uni, or Essex when I'm not. In the UK obviously, (there isn't an Essex anywhere else is there??) not that I know anyway.

So, why start a blog? I already have a tumblr but that's mainly for me fangirling all over things from Harry Potter to cats. In true tumblr style.
But I wanted somewhere to actually talk about other things, everything from what books I'm loving to what makeup I like. Also I wanted somewhere to focus some energy on, a distraction of sorts, being a rather anxious and neurotic kind of gal, so putting my energies into something constructive can't be bad right?

All in all this is going to be an expression of myself, most likely the good and the bad. Should be fun, right?

p.s. That's me.